My Journey To Find Confidence

If you read my previous post (“Follow Me On My Journey”), you know that I’m going on a journey. Not a literal journey per se but a figurative journey to becoming confident. Confidence is such a huge issue in our society and we make it out to seem like it’s only an issue for girls; I don’t believe that. Instead of our society focusing on being mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually healthy, our culture focuses on fitting into a box of what a girl or guy should look like. Our “health” should not be determined by culture’s version of what looks good. The society we live in doesn’t care about a person’s emotional health, just about how one looks outwardly.

I’ve decided to go on this journey to find confidence and joy like never before. I want to find confidence in a healthy way so that maybe I can help others to feel good about themselves too. Before it sounds like I’m crazy, I do think physical health matters. However, I don’t think being physically healthy is determined by a number on a scale or by the size clothes one wears. I think physical health is maintained by being fairly active and living a balanced lifestyle.

My inspiration/story: I was diagnosed about a year and a half ago as pre-diabetic. I didn’t really exercise much before being diagnosed and didn’t see it as a problem. I didn’t drink much water nor did I think much about what or how much I ate. I used eating as a way to cope with stress and emotions, even though it didn’t help longer than the food lasted. As soon as I was diagnosed as pre-diabetic I knew something had to change, so I got a personal trainer and went on a diet. The diet didn’t stick because my heart wasn’t in it when I wasn’t seeing results (in reality I was cheating more than I realized at the time). I also burned out on the exercise plan and slowly my lifestyle went back to the way it was before.

I got to a point where I was on the line of becoming slightly obese according to my BMI (Body Mass Index). Sure, I felt tired, worthless, depressed, among other things but it wasn’t enough to stop my bad habits. In the first quarter of 2017 I decided I needed to lose weight for me, not for anyone else, just for me. I lost about 20 pounds by Summer 2017 and I felt a million times better. I have managed to keep most of the weight off, but now I’m wanting to lose about 30-40 more pounds so I can be in the healthy range of my BMI.

I noticed that when my weight was up, I felt terrible mentally, physically, emotionally. Also, I focused on growing in my faith less because of it. That is why I’m going on this journey so that I can be healthier not only physically, but in every other aspect as well. I hope you join me on this journey and that it will help you as well. Confidence isn’t always inborn, sometimes you have to work for it.


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